traveller of time

2011-01-26T07:38:00.002+08:00

Life is a little bit relax when the kids are all quite
independant to go to school themselves.

I dont really need to rush and get ready in the early morning
to send them to schools anymore.

My morning has been a bliss since then. All I need is a cuppa
hot coffee and sitting in front of my pc..do a little surfing,
browsing and catching up on some ppl in the facebook.

Time management is so important, cos , i make sure i limit
my pc time..and then start do the cooking and the never ending
housechores.

Oh well...but I do enjoy just doing nothing sometimes !
Just me and myself...hehe

2011-01-10T07:52:00.002+08:00

Life is full of opportunities.

The opportunities im waiting for is on it's way.
Im taking a small step and hope with the small beginning,
it will grow.

I have the confidence in myself now..which was lacking
the last time. Im very clear of what i want to do,eventhou
it takes a lot of committments.

Im sooo ready !

2011-01-06T07:46:00.002+08:00

The "go with the flow" idea only works if you're kayaking on a river.
If you don't have a plan for where you want to go in life,
how will you know when you have arrived?

If you plan to move forward, you need to leave some things behind.
Emotional baggage, regrets , can weigh tons.!

2011-01-03T21:17:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, we've reached the year 2011.

2010 has just left us, so whatever happend on
that year remains as a memory in itself.

I have a couple of tasks to fulfil in 2011.

It needs a lot of disciplines,perserverence with a dash of
challenges & the main one will be procrastination , which
I really cant afford to do.

I'm totally committed (to myself)and the tasks.

For a start ... Imperfect Action is better than No Action.

2010-12-28T08:04:00.003+08:00

I've been missing on blogging for the longest time ,ever !!

I'll be back...sooon !

2010-09-20T07:50:00.002+08:00

I really apologise for the lack of update.
Time is really not on my side for the past weeks.

Syawal is already here...visiting families and friends
are almost over...but not so over yet.

Syawal for me, is not only portrayed beautifully clad dressing people,
but it is more of bringing back the lack of sirraturahim ,
togetherness and building back distance relationship amongst
families and friends.

During my Eid visitings, i discovered happiness in the faces
of my families and friends..and most importantly , the connection
of love between us.

Sometimes, i feel that i am one who took my family for granted,
and even blind to the things that make me who i am.

Im thankful...Alhamdulillah.

2010-09-08T07:16:00.002+08:00

I really havent have the time to update my blog.

Time just fly in a jiffy and Ramadhan is leaving us
in just a day away.

Alhamdulillah, we managed to do our terawih and iftar
at the mosque, that is full of "warmth" . We might
be doing our Eid prayer there too, insya allah.

The house and preparations of welcoming the month of Syawal is
almost ready...it will just a simple affairs.

I hereby would like to wish all my Muslims brothers and sisters

EID MUBARRAK !!

2010-08-23T07:53:00.002+08:00

The weekends were very well spent.

Friday, we did our iftar and terawih at the mosque we frequent, for this year.
Eventhou, the mosque is very much a distance from my place,
we didnt mind driving there, cos, somehow.. it "fit" us
quite comfortably.

It is just a small old mosque ,but the interior & the wudu' area
are clean , plus..the muslimah prayer hall is condusive .

Saturday, i had iftar + terawih with my FaithHUb brothers and sisters,
at Seventeenth Ave,Punggol. This is our annual iftar + terawih sessions.
I heart these people...cos they inspire me in a way or another .

Sunday, iftar was at my mom-in-law's place. I really appreciate her
effort to prepare food for us..and respect us as Muslims. It didnt
come overnite thou...it takes years before things like this comes to reality.

I still have few things that ive not fulfil yet for this Ramadan.
I'd better put the effort before IT's gone. !

2010-08-19T21:34:00.004+08:00

Today is my son's birthday. Gosh! he's 14yo and has
grown from a 3.45kg during birth to a big and tall young man.
This is like something ive dreamed about , suddenly become real.

There's lots of things to write abt my first born
and our relationship..but i prefer to keep it in my heart.
Only mothers will understand their child happiness & dissappoinment.

Im thankful even till this date he still hugs and kisses me.

But a mom is still a mom...i felt so emotional
at every of my prayers ,while doing supplications for his
well being.

The day is ending...everything goes well today.

Alhamdulillah.

2010-08-12T07:45:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah, the first day of Ramadhan went smoothly.

This year, hubby's intention to contribute food for iftar is fulfilled.
Yesterday, around 4pm, he collected over 30 packets of briyani fm the cook, and
started delivering it to various family n friends.

The fish briyani was sooo tasty n fresh. I r'cd a texted fm someone,
saying her whole family enjoyed the food soo much. Alhamdulillah.

Next week onwards, it will be every Tues and Thurs...so it's
either chicken or mutton briyani...or some other menu.
Ive made different lists of people to distribute on different days.

We intend to bring the kids for terawih every Fri and Sat..insya allah.
Last year, ive managed to encourage 3 families that has never done terawih
before to tag along...this year, ive another family in mind.

Our family Quran class every Sunday will still continue, except that we
changed the timing fm afnn to morning 9am,because, we have Tafsir class at 2pm.
I hope i can complete the Quran by end of Ramadhan,insya allah.

I try as much to observe every Ramadhan differently each year,
because I do not know if this could be my last.

This is the time when the gates of hell are shut.
The devil is locked up and his work is cut.
The doors of mercy are opened up wide
And Allah's blessings are always on your side.
Dont loose out on this opportunity .

2010-08-10T11:24:00.000+08:00

Wishing All Muslims ........

2010-08-06T09:29:00.004+08:00

It's the month of celebrations !!

Happy Birthday, my darling baby..Sharmila.

I LOVE YOU endlessly.!

Happy 45th Birthday to my country,Singapore ,on the 9th august.

Happy Birthday to all August babies. !

2010-08-05T10:06:00.002+08:00

As i closed my eyes to sleep last nite,
i let the world dissappear for a moment.

Im feeling sooo much better today.!

Ive removed all those toxic thoughts away.

After all these years ... i shld have known better.

Building a relationship with people is not that simple.

There's always a beautiful discovery everyday, depending on
how u look at things.

2010-08-04T12:35:00.004+08:00

I sort of knew it.

It's clear now.

Im hurt...although i didnt show it.

Words spoken were lesser.
I think i shall keep this way, till my feelings a little better.

My kids will be back fm school soon & hubby will be back fm
his trip tonite....i suddenly miss them.
I want to have a good laugh with them.
I choose to laugh than to cry.

I appreciate myself, cos, im able to accept the fact.

Anyway, it's not my position to choose, the two path.

2010-08-04T07:34:00.002+08:00

Everyone has their own definition when it comes to beauty.

The common ones will be based on celebrities..of what
they wear and how they look on tv or magazines.

Yet many people understand that in the truest sense, beauty is looking deep into your soul and knowing who you are inside. It can be your personality, your good heart or the way you treat others that make you so appealing.

Love the person you are inside just as equally or more than what people see on the outside.

So...what's your price of beauty??

2010-08-02T07:31:00.002+08:00

Bring each day anew.

It was kinda difficult for me to wake up tis morning.
I thot it was still Sunday and i need to sleep a little longer.
When the alarm rang, i looked at the time, it was 5:30am.
I struggled to get up .

Fajr prayer is peaceful. I feel rejuvenated.

Each day, im embracing every opportunity that come by
to build my inner strength. A little accomplishment
is a personal reward.

I believe, the dreams that are difficult to reach,
has the most value.

2010-07-26T12:23:00.000+08:00

A new chapter of life will begin tonite.

Blessed the nite of Nisfu Syaaban.

2010-07-20T12:16:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder, why i cant or hesitate to make my own decisions.

When ive decided on certain things, i tend to back off
just because........

This morning, i almost reached the destination im going,
but just because..........

I turned back.

But the best part, i didnt feel regret ,
infact , i laughed it off. silly !

Now, i begin to tell myself...whatever the challenges of the moment,
it will definitely pass.

2010-07-19T13:04:00.000+08:00

The Reality.

The Truth.

Hurts.

If I want something i've never had before,
I've got to do something I've never done before.

2010-07-15T07:12:00.002+08:00

Oh dear... there reason i leave this space unattended, is because,
ive forgotten what is the password. Ive mixed up the password here
with the other one...my bad. !

Anywayy, life has been the usual,eventhou, ive been having
lots of thoughts and observed few matters that allowed me to
think and reflect.

I want to make a decision but im not sure if i should.
If i ever make that decision, im not sure if the situation allowed.

The line between waiting and being patience , is a fine one.
Waiting is more like putting on hold...while patience makes me
feel having the ability accept delay .

All too often, the patience are lacking.... :(

Im not confused, i just need to pick
the area that im weak at...work on it and i believe,
success will come later.

2010-06-30T07:04:00.002+08:00

Do u get annoyed when things dont happend fast enough??

Sometimes, i kinda loose my patience...
Should I just follow my heart...and just do it on my own.

Im still waiting n hoping.

I often wonder,how some people manage to overcome incredible
difficulties, and soar.

2010-06-28T07:10:00.002+08:00

Apology for not been updating this space.

The school holidays and the short vacations i had ,made it
quite difficult for me to keep track here.

Anyhow, the school re-opens today and life is back to
it's original places.

I woke up at 5am this morning for my sahur,and having
a pre-Ramadhan feeling. Somehow, along the line, i have
been slacking spiritually and i hope to bounce back.

Our family Quran class resumed yesterday and it was a really
good feeling.

There's only a couple of months more before Ramadhan arrived,
I definitely need to start motivating myself for the better.

2010-06-17T10:58:00.002+08:00

I'm back from the short vacation last nite.

Everything went well , except the drive was waaay too long.

It was really fun filled.

Right now, i have piles of laundry waiting.

Will update more with pictures soon.

Alhamdulillah.

2010-06-10T09:41:00.002+08:00

Honestly, i dont really look forward to our short vacations tis time.

I dont know why...or perhaps i shall just keep the reasons to myself.

Anyhooowww, im hoping that everyone involved will enjoy the trip
just like the last one.

We'll be leaving this Saturday in the wee hour of the morning,
i reckon i will be sleeping in the car for most hours of the journey.

In btwn breaks , the drive to Penang from Singapore will be
approximately 7+++ hrs !!

Good luck to me !!

2010-06-06T12:23:00.002+08:00

Quick update .......

Alhamdulillah, all is good and well.

Hubby's medical tests and check ups are all clear.

My daughter has come to age , yesterday afnn.

I didnt expect my going-to-be 11yo daughter will reached
her puberty stage this early.. :P

Her reactions was cool ,cute and funny at the same time..hehee

I did what i shld be doing.. taught her some basic things
about being a woman....or she prefer to call it being a lady..hehee

Next , have to deal with PMS !

2010-06-01T16:50:00.003+08:00

Hubby was hospitalised last week ,for couple of days..and that explain
the lack of updates.

I am currently on a buzy mode...with kids at home due to
school holidays , the demand is greater , plus i have
some personal errands to run.

Albeit all those, things has been quite manageable.

When we learn to accept what it is, and embrace life in each present moment, our impatience often falls away.

2010-05-28T06:38:00.002+08:00

I was awakened by a text early this morning.

A frend mom just passed away after long suffering from
her illness.

I will be attending the funeral later.

Alfateha to Hajah Tasha bte Ahmed.

"Innalillahiwainnaillahirajioun"

2010-05-27T06:49:00.003+08:00

Masyaallah! its been quite a hectic week.

Today , most of the parents here will be having
parent-teachers-meeting in school...i'll being
going in a while more.

It's basically letting parents know the progress
of your child and areas that need to be improved.

The school term is ending..and the holidays are here soon.
We have planned for a short getaway , we all need a break.

Im dead beat each day..after doing all the domestic stuff,
but i make a point to surf the net,chk my emails,my blog,facebook etc.
somehow this one has keep my sanity going. :)

Till then, have a great holiday!

2010-05-24T10:18:00.004+08:00

few snap shots that happend over the weekend. :)

at the garden ..

Me and wati :)

the kiddos..eva,shabana,sharmila(my daughter),hazirah

safiah,me and wati

me and cousins.

2010-05-19T07:55:00.003+08:00

Now, i can sip my coffee at a slower pace.

Time to relax my mind .. cos,kids exams are so over
and school holidays are coming soon.

Great! my son top his English paper in the entire class
while my princess achieved best top 3 in her class for English and
top her Mother Tongue Oral.

Alhamdulillah.

2010-05-17T07:45:00.003+08:00

Life has been a little busy over here with events and stuff.

Today, i realised... im taking things for granted.

However, I am so greatful to HIM for protecting my pride and honour.

I wouldnt have imagined if things were otherwise.

2010-05-10T07:35:00.005+08:00

Just sharing simple things from the Practical Islam Motivational class...

I
S = Is

L = Loving
A = Allah
M = and Muhammad s.a.w

ISLAM = Is Loving Allah and Muhammad (s.a.w.)

Q = Quickly
U = Understand
R = Read
A = Apply
N = Narrate

QURAN =
Quickly(learn)..Understand(the meaning)..Read (daily)..Apply(in yr life)
Narrate(to others even if it is just one word.)

2010-05-06T09:20:00.001+08:00

That simple things in life ........

That moment of biting into a crisp, juicy apple...Yum. And as a bonus—vitamins, fiber, and a feeling of doing something ever so slightly forbidden.

Life over here has been a little buzy of late...but i feel blessed.

2010-05-03T15:40:00.008+08:00

The funeral ceremony ...

This is my very first time attending a Hindu funeral ceremony.
I really didnt know what to expect , besides some vague knowledge
of the rites from the telly or watching Indian movies.

Lo and behold, i got the chance to witness from A-Z process
of the funeral rites.

I am going to be very very brief...cos,it's a whole day affair !!

Hubby left our house on Saturday morning, to aunt Devagi's plc,
where the funeral took place. He wanted to make sure that everything
was in order...the chairs & tables at the void deck, the casket thingy etc.
The body was brought back to the house on that same morning also.

It was a super buzy morning for me too..kids still having classes..
send and fetch them. Packed few clothes to change later,just in case .

Fetched my niece and nephew from their home (as my SiL n BiL went earlier)
and then i drove my way to Sembawang.

Me and the kids arrived slightly before 2pm. Many cousins and other
relatives already there,sitting at the void deck.
Made few hellooos and hi's and went up the the hse.
There's already room full of families and friends.

Patti was fully embalmed..very much different from what i
saw the nite before. The body was laid at the living room for
those who wanted to pay thier last respect...putting flowers
on the feet.

Then...they did some customary rites,like putting oil on the head,
bathe the body and then shroud her with sari. Once its done,
body was being transferred to the coffin.
They did some customary rites again..*too many to describe here*.

At around 4.30pm..the coffin was brought down..by the staircase!

Another customary rites below...when the whole process was over,
time to move to the crematarioum.

Another religious rites at the service hall...once done,
we moved on to the viewing gallery..there's a
glass panel .. where, all of us could witness the coffin entered
the furnace of over 1000c of heat !!

Sunday,they collected the ashes and another rites was done
to dispersed it at the sea.

Rest in peace.. Nagama patti (91yo) .

* Pls take note, as we are Muslims..we did not participate
in any of their religious rites. *

Anyhooow, From my very first hand experience of the abv, it is
very much surfice to say that I am blessed to be a Muslim.

2010-05-03T13:58:00.002+08:00

In my last post , i blogged abt the passing on of hubby's aunt.

This is going to be another post abt another death in the family.

Just last Friday, as we were getting ready for our Tafsir class,
hubby received a call from his mom , citing that his, grandma
was in serious condition.

As this has happend many times, i thot i would be another
false alarm..minutes later we received another call from
my MiL telling us..patti (grandma) is dead.

Patti died at home..at aunt Devagi's house in Sembawang.
So, hubby and myself, tagging the kids along , skipped
our class and rushed to the house.

We fetched my eldest sis in law and kids .. reached
the house around 9.15pm. I walked in to the room
where patti's body laid on the bed . Her mouth was opened as
if she was gasping for her last breathe.
*i would not describe futher*

Patti has 6 daughters ... my MiL is the fourth. That night,
they decided to send the body for embalmed..cos,
the funerals will only take place the next evening .. Saturday.

Aunt Leela, the second daughter came around 10plus..minutes
before the body being taken away by the casket people for embalment.

When the body has been carried away,we helped to clear the house, bringing
down all the photos frames, pictures on the wall,table n chairs ..
leaving the house as bare as possible, as a sign of mourning.

We came backhome around 1am...bathe..washed the clothes n slept. *tired*

Next day is the funeral ..........

2010-04-28T07:02:00.006+08:00

"kArmA Is FoR The BoDy Or FoR ThE SouL "

Death is a separation of the soul from the body.

As i entered the living room last nite, there she was laying peacefully
wrapped in her beautiful red wedding sari only baring the face.

The whole atmosphere was sombre and solemn...only
the sound of OM prayers were heard and kaffir lime
scented jossticks were burnt.

My mom in law, who was alright when she was in the car
with us...cried uncontrollably at the deceased when we arrived
at the house. It's like watching a Tamil movie.
It was my first to see her like dat and
it was also my first to attend a Hindu wake/funeral.

There's a little commotion earlier ... as relatives
wanted the body to be cremated...while the hubby and son
prefered to do burial.Alas,the immediate family has the final say.

Karma and rebirth is a great pillar in Hinduism. They also
believe life is one never ending process, the only thing that
changed is the environment and the embodiment. I really dunno
how this work .

This afnn, the burial rites will take place. I wont be attending
because kids will be back frm school etc.

After battling for years of cancer, aunty Vasugee finally
rest her soul in peace .

surah Al-Kafirun "The Unbelievers"
---------------------------------------

" Say: O unbelievers,
I serve not what you serve,

nor do you serve what I serve,
nor shall I serve what you are serving,

nor shall you be serving what I serve.
To you your religion, and to me my religion."

2010-04-26T09:33:00.007+08:00

The birthday weekends was fantabulous...despite me being
a little unwell.

Gifts from the loved ones and people that care.

From my dear hubby...a little over the "budget" thou..hehe

Metro voucher fm sisters in law..Takashimaya voucher fm my sister
scarves from Safiah and cousin.

card from my lovely daughter ...with lovely
words inside......

I received a nice white tunic fm another cousin..

My son..who is not into cards and such, besides the wishes and hugs
gave me a gooodd shoulders and neck massage ... :)

His motto is like..... "dare to be different"...hahaha

Alhamdulillah .... :)

2010-04-21T07:25:00.003+08:00

Realizing that planting is a process ... it takes a lot of work
for personal growth too.

Since im getting a year older in a couple of days time ... im slowing
down to reflect , on how to sow my soul garden.

I get distracted easily with the worldly things sometimes...my bad.
Im working on how to make sure the live given to me, is in sync
with the deepest values and priorities.

I need fertilizers ... seeking knowledge.

Alhamdulillah, with the on-going learning, it does create
and stilmulate wisdom.

But my personal soul garden embrace
trial and errors. So, having good gardeners around to provide
me with inputs and advice do benefits.

Happy Earth Day , everyone. :)

2010-04-19T07:03:00.007+08:00

Beautiful Monday ,

Sometimes, life doesnt hand us what we want.

Many things happend recently that lead to an eye opener
and lessons gained.

A bro, who had sudden heart attack,not once,
but twice on the same day,was wheeled to ICU and came out of it.
Strong family bonding does wonder to give support to one another.

Siblings ties got broken, which is a sad thing to see.

Sudden changed of a person's character, whom you once feel
comfortable with...now it's getting a little awkward .

Few other things that matters ...and it brings a knock on my head.
Somehow, when things happend, we have to acknowledge the pain ,
and move on with life.

We wont know ,there could be wonderful things ahead waiting for us.

2010-04-15T07:21:00.003+08:00

This was what i had for lunch yesterday.
Food courtesy of my mom in law,cos, yday was
a New Year for Indians,so we became herbivore for a day.

vegetarian diet .......

tooo yummy ......

On the other note,hubby has given me the "budget" amount for my bday gift.
Now, i cant decide which ONE i shld be getting......

I must decide properly cos, i dont want to get the wrong thing........
I have to hit the town to check the options......

No rush.. but i definitely will get myself another BAG !..haha *evil grin*

2010-04-14T07:02:00.009+08:00

Alhamdulillah,im granted another day to watch the sun rise.

Death as we know is inevitable.

Currently two of hubby's side of the family are in a
state of "no hope to live" due to thier conditions,according
to the doctors.

His patti (grandma),has been struggling to live since
for the past months,going in and out of the hospital/hospice.
She's almost 90yo,I reckon she has live her lives well enough .

Another one ,is his aunt V. She's having cancer and it has spread
to almost every part of her cells. The last i visited her at the
hospital, she was not able to open her eyes and was having fever.
Her kids,her hubby and some of her sisters were there by her side.

There's a little conflict going on btwn her son and her sisters,
as i observed the little argument, i could summarised it,
as both parties were very much concerned abt aunt V.

I was controlling my tears when i heard the words that came
out from her son, Dinesh . I know he was devastated. But knowing
Dinesh , he has always been a good son.

In desperation, people tends to seek help in anyways. I was
surprised when aunt V's husband told me to do some prayers with
the holy water he got from Mecca. So, it's zamzam water, that he
got from his Muslim sister in law , who just came back fm Umrah.
She came to visit in the afnn , and left a bottle of zamzam water.

Im not sure if this was right for me to do...but i did. I recited
Al-fatiha and salawat in my heart,
pour some zamzam water on a small face towel,
and wiped aunt V's face,hands and legs.

I was actually has this fear of stitches , but somehow.. that moment,
the fear seemed to be missing. I gently wiped aunt V's head,
that has two long stitches ,frm the earlier surgery she
had,to remove the clot fluid.

As i was leaving..walking thru the hallway, i saw Dinesh, was crying
his heart out in a small waiting room. I was heartbroken looking at
his state.

The next day,hubby received a call from my mom in law, and she
said aunt V was abled to sit up and fever has somewhat subsided.
So glad to hear that...... but few days later, things didnt look
good again.

Aunt V has only till today to live, according to the doc..and im
not sure what's next .......

Reminder for myself .....
"The more Muslims thinks of death .. the better he will act in life"

2010-04-13T15:56:00.003+08:00

Im too lazy to step out of the house,
because the heat is juz too much for me and giving me
bad headache.The weather is a killer the past few days.

But feel like munching something.
Rummaged the fridge and found nothing ,
except...flour,chilly ,onion .. mixed them
together with pinch of salt and i got these .......

It only takes a few minutes to make and i ate them
with chilly sauce while it's hot.

Beggars cant be choosers .. LoL

2010-04-12T07:01:00.010+08:00

Last Saturday was partayyy time and was fun !

OOoops! it's partayy no-no.
It's Faithhub social gathering at our good friends,
bro M and sis Syl condo function hall.

Almost those who came were new faces , and they
attended our Talks at Masjid Sultan, the previous months.

Since we didnt know them , we, the warm people of Faithhub heheh:P
mingled around and make our bros and sisters as comfortable
as possible.

The ice breaker session was enlightening and informal
setting made it easy for everyone .

I was buzy mingling hence only managed to take few shots.

Surprise! the warm people celebrated our (advanced) birthdays too.. :)

some familiar faces, Haja, Yussof(safiah's hubby) ,Safiah, Syl and friend.

our brothers ......

some of the sisters ....

At the end of the session, we were glad they enjoyed themselves
very much as much as we did.

It's our pleasure ..... :)

2010-04-09T07:10:00.002+08:00

I bumped into an old friend yesterday, and
she commented that i have this radiance and glow kinda look...hahaha

We bumped in the market yo... so i figured, my face glowed
whenever i see fresh fish and vegetables there..haha

Honestly, i was in my sooo unglam mode, so probably either
she has corked eyes or she need to change her specs.

Anyhoww, we managed to catch up a little bit while doing
the marketing ... yeah,things women do best ... multitasking.

During the short coversation we had, i noticed , all
she did was complaining abt her life ...and ironically
she lived in a big house , two beautiful kids, good husband
and has a helper...i so dont u'stand the whining......

On a serious note ,

Life is not just about G/L/O/R/Y .

It's about ........

B/A/L/A/N/C/E and R/E/S/P/O/N/S/I/B/I/L/I/T/Y .

I used to wake up on the wrong side of the bed, but
now, all i do is to just switch to the other side.

Sometimes, when we thought that happiness is something or
somewhere else , we tend to forget that bliss is actually just
in front of us .

Happy mood y'all it's the weekends ......

Have a Blessed Friday !

2010-04-07T15:21:00.003+08:00

At only 37weeks .. 3 weeks short before the estimated birth date,
the little pumpkin decided to see the world.

Introducing, my newly born niece ....
weighing 3.4kg during birth..

Grandma with pumpkin and big bro Satria Riza Maulana

Satriani Cinta Muliana

To my sis, the agony is not so over yet...
you still have a long journey ahead.

Congrats and all the best !

2010-04-06T06:58:00.004+08:00

My Pc is alive and kicking again !

Ive got many things to write during my pc-less moment
but now it's all gone.

I cant remember what im suppose to share here.

Anyhooow,I checked my mobile phone this morning, and
i saw a text from my bro inlaw at 4am ,stating my
sister has given birth ! It's a girl...wooohooo!

I shall visit her later and will take some shots of the newborn.

At this moment, my mojo is not working properly yet , will
update again later.

2010-04-01T15:46:00.002+08:00

Excuse me,

While i fixed a major hard disk problem
with my PC.

It's undergoing troubleshooting and won't be
ready till next week.

While the PC is in the operation theatre,
Im going thru major boredom.

I'll be back soon.

2010-03-26T12:41:00.005+08:00

Things we did on a Friday morning ....

Safiah craves for bubur kampung (porridge),
and i feel like eating nasi campur..(rice w side dishes),

we ended up at Geylang Market.

And NO... we're not pregnant..hahaha
we are just two crazy housewives ,
who crave to shed some weight , but we thot eating would be a
better choice instead ...hahaha

choice of dishes (how to resist..)

The good food.

what u can get there ... and NO, we didnt get anything.

Happy Weekends !

2010-03-24T12:57:00.008+08:00

Sticky.

Smelly.

Tired.

Hungry.

Enjoyed.

Three days away from home ....,
she came back this afnn ......,
showered ... feeling super clean & freshness,like never before.
Ate one whole plate of rice with her fave chicken curry
+ few pcs of fried chicken + cut fruits.

Spoke to her favourite person(daddy) over the phone for awhile....

Now, she's taking a nap.

my baby is back from her school camp.

some of the camping stuff.

2010-03-23T14:15:00.002+08:00

The heavy rain this morning, did not dampen us .

I met Safiah for our brunch date at Swensen, just now.

As always, it did lifted me up and forget about all those blues.

There's no lack of things to talk about and to laugh ourselves silly.

We took few pictures, but all turned out to be so retarded..hahaha

So, the only presentable pictures are the food .

2010-03-22T10:04:00.005+08:00

I need rainbows ......

Im "suffering" from a few unpleasant news .

Dissappointments, but im abled to seal my emotions.

Eventhou, i managed to express what's rooted inside,
it seemed pointless.

Im feeling so fragile. I must moved myself away from the "feelings & thoughts " .

Maybe i should occupy my brain with something productive...
like baking chocolate chips , reading or the least, talk to my plants.

Positively thinking, it's not an uninvited ending,
it may turn out to be blessings.

Maybe , just maybe i shld take up yoga for emotional balance..LoL

2010-03-18T14:47:00.006+08:00

My collections of abayas are mostly black , grey and other pastel colors.

When the committees decided that the ladies wearing maroon for a change (of the usual black), i have no other choice but to look for something of the mentioned color.

I got this abaya , surprisingly in a jiffy state of time !

Now, im ready for this Saturday event .
(the pics dont do justice thou)

The maroon abaya ..

The sleeve ...

Close up ...

2010-03-17T10:24:00.002+08:00

Wednesday Blessings ......

My life is noisy .... especially now that the school is out for a week.

But not that im complaining ...
I brought the kids to the nearby park the other day,
looking at how they screamed and laughed over the silliest things ,
means ,there's joy that surrounds me.

Life is bitter sweet ...sometimes, i have to take a different routes
to resize certain issues .

Each moment is a gift. Savour it. Be in it.

2010-03-15T08:17:00.004+08:00

One weekend is gone .......... just like dat.

Don't know where to go this coming Saturday ?

Bring your families and friends for this Talk ,
by Ustaz Mokhtar Stork.

Hey! Admission is free !..
YOU just need to come with an open mind ,open heart ....
and May HE open the doors of knowledge & wisdom for you ( and me ) .

Ameen.

2010-03-11T11:58:00.005+08:00

Safiah just called me ....

She did it !! Alhamdulillah.

Soo happy for her ! :)

The instructors who conducted crash course the past few days , didnt do much justice,according to her.

Each of them has different ways of teaching, especially on parkings.
The lessons were disoriented .

She got worried sick and panic seeps in deeper when she called me
earlier this morning.

I told her to focus on her driving and just be comfortable and confident with whatever ways she has learned ... dont bother abt the tester sitting next to her.

After her 3rd attempt today , my bestfriend finally got her driving licence.!
Yes !! *thumbs up**

I smell celebration ... its time for her to pick me up instead .**woohoo**

2010-03-10T07:13:00.005+08:00

Changes ......

I would say .. adjustment to new things,actually.

It may not be a solution to the problems or issues,
but im trying out the possibilities.

We cant cling on to one thing forever ....
the old ones might stay but for how long more ?

but when a new door of opportunities comes, just go forward.

Hoping for the best.

Insya allah.

2010-03-08T07:25:00.005+08:00

Hungry me..
First stop..lunch at Ayam Penyet (Lucky Plaza).

Then it was shopping time ......

LV and Safiah :P

GUCCI and me ....

Vogue pose...no? hahaha

on our way back ... with our NEW shades.
*evil grin**other stuff not in the picture*

we took crazy photos of ourselves..and we laughed out silly as usual ,hehe
for the moment , we forgot that we are mothers of two and three kids respectively..haha

Last Sunday, was not the usual Sunday for us....
The weekends are usually family times and preparing for school etc.
But,somehow or rather we managed to get out fm the house for few hours...hahaha
It's a "treat" for safiah and me,
after all the exam stress are over...results aside.
Well,we really had fun and enjoyed the outing(read:shopping) soooo much.

This year will be our 25th year of friendship..(insya allah)
We have grown and mature thru the years, but despite all the episodes in life that we had went thru , she's always there for me as much as im always there for her.

May this friendship last till our dying day..(insya allah).

2010-03-05T15:13:00.003+08:00

Today ,

Kids ExAmS are soooo over !

Hubby is coming back this evening .

Will be having supper with the family and the inlaws.

Saturday,

Kids start their Practical Islam class.

Evening, hubby and me having FaithHub meeting with committees.

Sunday,

Morning, Briskwalk at MacRithie Reservoir .

No Quran class .

Save the best thing for last.....

Im going down town ...
S/H/O/P/P/I/N/G with my partner in crime ...
Safiah, my bestfriend !

I can *breathe* !

The weekends are here ...... !!

2010-03-04T08:42:00.004+08:00

I want watch to this movie !

Once, hubby is back from Sydney, will drag him to come with me.

I just love SRK and Kajol duo.

Period .

2010-03-02T13:58:00.004+08:00

Thirst quencher ..........

The weather has been a killer .... the sun is scorching hot!

I know the plants will be very happy to receive that much of sunlight...

The laundry will get dry quickly...

But im having a big headache.

Just popped in two Panadol Extra.

With this kinda heat, i dont even want to go out .

I feel soo sticky and i tink i need to take a shower .... again, later.

2010-03-01T07:05:00.002+08:00

Saturday afnn was spent with hubby and some FaithHub committees attending a training session for our new website.

After Maghrib, all of us proceeded to attend Maulid at Ustz's place.
Its been quite awhile since i last did my zikir....(my bad)

It was sooo rejuvenating....especially for the soul.

Sunday...our family Quran session.

An unexpected checked by Ustaz on the kids sholat recitations and some surahs..
*evil grin*

When the kids were caught off guard , everything went a tad haywire...haha

We made mistakes ...we giggled silently at each other ... we guide and encouraged one another ... and most importantly we learn & grow together.

I truely enjoyed this session every Sunday...

From the time the kids changed to their proper attire,
to the time, my son or daughter will prepare our Quran(s) and books on the table..
to the time we all will be revising (menderas) and kids will be "teaching" daddy..heheh before Ustaz appeared at our door. Priceless !

It's one of the many memories and moments of my life that i will treasure forever.

2010-02-25T10:29:00.002+08:00

D/E/C/I/S/I/O/N

I hope im making the right move .

2010-02-24T15:28:00.005+08:00

Hubby's bro in law,just collected his brand new black Audi, last Friday.

I saw it and i fell in love (with the car of cos).... sooo yummy!!

It has that sporty look and unmistakably a personality.

The scent of the cinnnamon colored leather interiors , was just too arousing.

I joked with him .... I can only imagine, myself with my Gucci/Coach shades behind the steering wheel . LoL

My younger sis in law...is counting her days for her Volkswagen
to come out fm the "oven" ... *dang*! :P

But for now, i am very much contended with our Estima . :P

2010-02-23T07:52:00.004+08:00

Im feeling great this morning...cos, i feel healthy . LOL !

I just got back from my morning exercise at the fitness park near my place.

The air was still so crispy with less pollution (yet).

There's already a number of regulars around the fitness park doing Tai-chi and stuff.

I had my handphone earpiece plugged into my ears with music in full blast , and doing my briskwalk...one full circuit is 300m... and i did about 5 rounds..Yay me !

It's the cheapest way to loose weight and escape from the pain. :P

Great way to track down my mood too..haha

2010-02-22T10:19:00.004+08:00

2010.........

How has it been so far ....

Still toooo early to tell ......

February is ending thou .......

Life is still in colorful therapy ....

The home is left with just myself at this moment ..

It's the best time to uncluttered my mind ....

Writing does heal in certain ways ...

However , i really dont wish to rewrite my life...

'Cos it makes meanings from the past memories .....

The weekends were a great ones ....

Hopefully it will echo today, too ....

Happy Monday !

2010-02-19T07:24:00.005+08:00

It's Friday !

Im waiting and hoping my mom or the hospital will call me later , saying she can be discharged.

Alhamdulillah, mom is so much better when i visited her yday.

On a different note, im working out through some disagreements.
I never like to engage with an arguments just for the sake of arguing.
I tink getting into verbal sword fight serve no purpose.
It doesnt clarify justifications or understanding when one is in the heat of anger.

When conflicts arrives, we tend to view it as negative issues, but
i take it as an eye opener.

I have no investment in being right all the time.."agree to disagree".

Im cool !

2010-02-18T06:57:00.002+08:00

Choose the WORDS that YOU speak carefully ..... cos they are more
POWERFUL than YOU know.

Words have weight !

2010-02-16T08:14:00.009+08:00

Loong holidays due to the Chinese New Year ? Well, not so of a holidays, actually.

My mom was warded in the hospital since last Friday.
I fetched her to the A&E on Friday morning, and after all the
checked up and stuff....doc needed her to be admitted.

I was at the hospital the whole of Friday, talking to the doctors, settle few other matters ... and stayed with mom, till at nite.
Fortunately, my sis was not working on that day, so hubby fetched her to come by our place, cos, my kids were coming back from school in the afnn.

My mom needed to do minor surgery to removed the uric acid (due to gout) and pus on the effected area (her ankle). She was a little anaemic at that time , so doc needed to do some blood transfusion...during or after the surgery.

My dad , my siblings and my kids came to visit later. WE managed to see mom being
wheeled for her surgery. WE decided to go for quick bite and then came back again to the ward.

After the surgery, mom looked a little weak ..but at least what needed to be done has been done.

Ive been going to and fro ,to the hospital almost every day at every visiting hours.

Mom is getting much better now and i hope she's able to be discharged today, eventhou, doc mentioned she'll be discharged on Wednesday.

Im going to the hospital again , later....but first, i have to cook some simple dish for the family, cos, we've been eating out the past few days..that is not good. I'd probably packed some food and send to my dad .

Im very tired , but i gotta do what i gotta do.

:}

2010-02-11T07:15:00.007+08:00

Wearing hijab with non muslim families around you, can be quite challenging.

Their thoughts, why suddenly all covered up and become "fanatic".

I can somehow swallowed all that...cos, i anticipated such remarks will be thrown at me,due to my current way of dressings.

My in laws are slooooowly trying to accept the fact that im "conservatively covered".

Last Sunday, i was at Pasir Ris Park with the families to celebrate the twins, Viknesh & Vaheshnavi's 14th birthday. It was just a mini gathering... just us.
Then came a couple of relatives or extended families i would say.

She has never seen me in a "conservative" attire before. As expected, she passed a very sarcastic remarks and then she said ,
"Oh! i really couldnt recognise you at all!".

All i did was smile....hey! its sunnah after all. :)

Seriously, i wonder when we are hijabified do our face looks like alien or somthing ?!

2010-02-09T07:10:00.007+08:00

MY best friend,Safiah, called me at 7 in the morning and our impromptu date was fixed so quickly..heeehehe

We had McDonalds for breakfast and early morning shopping yesterday.! Heaven! :)
We never get bored of each other..things are always fun and crazy when we meet.
Shopping was sooo happening until time reminded us that we have kids coming back from school sooon. *lemau sey*

On the other hand, my mom has been sick lately. It really worries me, when recently, her ankle got swollen and there's yellow pus in it. My sis brought her to the doc,last Sunday nite, and according to the doc, it may be due to some bacteria infection (in the blood). She has been vomitting and having giddiness. Doc said it could due to her blood pressure which was on a high note. I rushed to my mom place , spend a little time with her and got her to rest and tucked in early.
Yesterday afnn when i spoke to mom, she said her vomitting has somewhat stopped but she's having diarrhea instead..and the ankle still swell.

I may need to bring her to the doc again for review.

2010-02-05T08:00:00.004+08:00

Today ,

Going for my Quran lesson in the morning.

Tafsir class in the evening with the hubby.

" The World is three days:
As for yesterday, it has vanished, along with all that was in it.
As for tomorrow, you may never see it.
As for today, it is yours, so work in it."

- Imam `ali (ra) as well as sayyidna Hassan al-Basri (ra)

Have a blessed Friday and great weekends !

2010-02-04T11:59:00.006+08:00

My morning has been wonderful.

Cleaning the house,laundry & cooking are all done.

I am in my own space and time, while everyone is away to work and to school.

I have a few things in my mind that im concerned about.
Im trying to figure out how to get "things" done.
I pray and asked HIM for help.

I am still staying open to possibilities and surprises that life can offer. Perhaps ,they maybe just around the corner.

2010-02-02T14:54:00.005+08:00

'Whatever you give a woman, she will make it greater.

If you give her sperm,
she'll give you a baby.

If you give her a house,
she'll give you a home.

If you give her groceries,
she'll give you a meal.

If you give her a smile,
she'll give you her heart.

She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.

So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of sh*t.'

:)

2010-02-01T07:37:00.002+08:00

Get rid of your Monday blues.

Put on your happy socks .

I started my day with happy thoughts.

NO toxic thinking !

2010-01-25T15:07:00.004+08:00

I need calmness .

Mentally exhausted .

BUT...........

Even though the world has its problems, the sun still rises in the sky each morning, and we're awake and alive when we get out of bed.

The dry season in life do not last , rain will definitely fall.

Im grateful .

2010-01-23T11:31:00.006+08:00

I am so glad that I attended the Talk by bro Idris Tawfiq last nite.

He was so full of sincererity when he delivered his speech.

He added humors , so it was serious but relax at the same time.

He "made" Islam so simple and answered those questions very aptly.

Islam is Simple !

Quoted :

" Islam is perfect,perfect,perfect.......... but not the Muslims."

by bro Idris Tawfiq

2010-01-21T07:36:00.005+08:00

Bro Idris Tawfiq, a former British pastor ,who embraced Islam a few years back after reading the Quran.

Hubby and myself planning to attend his Talk this Friday. Intend to tag along our teenage son . Insya allah.

2010-01-18T08:13:00.008+08:00

Some snapshots of FaithHub event at the Sultan Mosque , last Saturday.
It was our first public event and it was a success ! Alhamdulillah.

The Sultan Mosque

The ladies

Registration

some of the audiences

Ustz Haron Akhtar

Ustz Mokhtar Stork

Ustz Mokhtar w Bro Mohsen

Ustz Haron w Bro Mohsen

Engrossed .

We received many good and encouraging feedback from the audiences thru the evaluations forms.
As Talks in English are very few here, these people are longing for more of such events.

Insya allah..FaithHub will be planning for the next one.

2010-01-14T06:58:00.006+08:00

FaithHub brochures all stacked up.

Somebody has to do the job.

All the other members have their own tasks/duties to perform.

We're almost all geared up for this coming Saturday.

FaithHub will be organising a Talk in English at the Sultan Mosque Auditorium.
This Saturday , 16th January 10, 2pm-5pm.
Free Admission.

Talk by Ustz Haron Akhtar, will be touching on "Islam being the most misunderstood religion and what we can do to rectify this situation."

This is indeed timely as we struggle with all the questioning from our non muslim friends around what our religion has to say about the world events that are unfolding everyday. We are being bombarded with articles in the newspapers stereotyping Muslims to the world. What should our response be and what should our next steps be? .

The second Ustaz is not a stranger. He is none other than Ustaz Mokhtar Stork. An Australian convert and the author of the celebrated book A-Z Guide to the Quran published by Times Publishing. It will indeed be an inspiring talk on the "Need to redefine Islamic education."

The current education is not wholesome and he will share why it is not so and what needs to happen to make it wholesome. We have a great role to play in this space as well and come find out what we need to do individually and collectively as an Ummah.

Come join us !

2010-01-11T11:14:00.002+08:00

Why do good intentions go terribly wrong sometimes.?

So, every now and then things can just go wrong.
It didnt turn out to be what it suppose to be.
Life is full of unexpected moments.

I think i can handle this.
Emotionally or not.
It can be quite challenging.
But what is life w/o challenges.

Im upset , because i care.
If i didnt care,i wont be upset in the first place.

2010-01-08T07:37:00.002+08:00

So far, so good and im so in love with my mornings.

After the kids and hubby has gone to school and to work,
the morning is just for me and myself alone.

Some days, i have my classes to attend.
I have piles of housework that needs to be done..
But then, i realised, i began to make time for dhuha prayers and also
able to read few pages of the Quran.
Peacefully.

I felt so relieved n calming after that, and the housechores continued.

This isnt my goal,plan or anything, but i thot this is simple and yet meaningful duties that i have to keep. Insya allah.

I was thinking of doing brisk walking in the evening y'day,when the kids go for thier tuition class. I was almost ready with my track suits and shoes, when it started to drizzle. So my spirit was somewat dampened.
I thot this morning, i could do it , but i was too lazy.
I landed my butt here, and typing these.
Anyhoot, reminder to myself, it starts and ends in the mind. :P

Alrite, i have to take one little step at a time,in order to make changes.
If im gonna take 50 changes in a short period of time, i shall not be able to make it. Ive to pace myself.

Im just sharing here..nothing of other sort.
Im trying to look at the bright side of things and if i dont succeed,i have to
reasses myself.

Changes do take time ! :)

2010-01-06T14:32:00.002+08:00

My good friend, Syl and her family went back to her hometown in Jakarta ,during the
school holiday last December. It's to celebrate Idul Adha to be exact.

They stayed at Syl's aunt's house and so much of siratulrahim were build during their stay .

About a week later, Syl ,who was already back here in Singapore received a shocking news. Her aunt's son, a young guy, aged abt 30yo, suddenly collapsed and had to be rushed to hospital. They found out that he had leukemia! To make the matter worse, the young guy's mom..that is Syl's aunt, is actually a doctor herself and she knew nothing abt her son's condition.

The son's condition began to deteriorate and had to be put on a support system. When things like this happend, the family members would be in dilemma. To plug or to unplugged.

Days went by and the young guy time was up...he has to meet his Creator.
His wealth, his family, his friends ...... everything, was left behind.

Innalillahiwainnaillahirajion.

Some people (like my sis in law) taught that death is the most depressing topic to talk abt...but i beg to differ. These are but signs that remind us that it can happen to anyone at anytime and with that we should thank Allah s.w.t. for giving us another day / year in our lives.

Ameen

2010-01-05T11:31:00.002+08:00

I havent write anything here yet..since 2010 !

It's the 5th day of January already.

So many incident happend the past weeks/days, some are just the norm, some were simply bizarre.

An update on my hubby's grandma...she's still "surviving" her very critical-in- danger-zone condition. Some people in the family predicted she'll "go" before the New year comes..but nooooo , an ambulance took her on X'mas day and till date, she's lying at the hospital bed.

On the night of the New Year , my mom in law and younger SiL , met an accident..on their way home from the hospital. My MiL suffered from shocked and chestpain due to the impact and my younger SiL had minor bruises on her arms. Fortunately,nothing really serious happened to them. However, the car booth/rear was badly dented...

Few other things has been happening , but i shall write abt it the next time.

2009-12-24T07:39:00.002+08:00

This morning weather is so cooling and nice to just lay in bed.

It's still a little dark and raining, but i couldn't go back to bed after subh.
Im a person who is unable to sleep again,once i woke up.

Kids will be going for their Quran class at 9am, and after that im bringing them to
watch Alvin and the Chipmunks. Hubby will be off to play golf later.

Tommorow , we have plans for other things.

2010 coming....so many plans in the making.

Life is full of plans and making plans...

Note of oneself:
Sometimes, when things do not go as plan...we'll get upset,pissed and angry...but we forgot , Allah is the best planner.

Happy Holiday !

:)

2009-12-22T10:21:00.003+08:00

Last evening, hubby and myself went to visit his ailing grandma.

My mom inlaw and sis inlaw (with family) came along too.

Grandma, better known as Patti, is being taken care by hubby's aunt.
When we arrived at the aunt's place, we went straight to the room , where Patti was.

She was lying on the bed, unable to move...so much so as already bed-ridden.
Her frail boney body just lied there, unable to respond when we called her..thou she tied very hard to open her eyes.
Her cheeks were deep sunken,her few strands of white hair was tied up, she breathed like she's gasping for air..her lungs are filled with phelgm.

I felt sad for her...but at the same time, thankful ,for at least she has someone of her own flesh and blood to care for her ,with the help of a maid.

Patti is a strong woman (despite her other characters)..she was in coma for more than a week ,two years back. Almost everyone was "prepared" for her death..even my hubby cancelled his business trip. Lo and behold, with her strong willed power to live, she "woke up".

Last nite, what i saw, was different fm the previous. The chance to
live longer looks pretty slim...( i dunno).

How long can a person live in this world?
Our clock is ticking every,seconds and minutes till the hour comes.
Death sometimes come with no indication.
I attended two funerals recently, and the whole situation give me a perfect reminder.

Well, our journey in life will come to an end..we all shall taste death.
Have we prepared ?

:(

2009-12-21T08:27:00.004+08:00

Just sharing .........

Sunday afnn, as usual, was our family Quran lesson.

Yday lesson was like the norm , except ...with the Ustz encouragement , with family support and most importantly Allah's help,my dear hubby has been upgraded to read the Holy Quran.! Alhamdulillah.

I was really happy with his progress. :)

On the other hand,hubby received text message fm his sister last nite, saying that thier ailing, almost 90 years old grandma was in 'bad shape', and probably can only last till this week.
The last i saw her was few month back, during Deepavali ... her body was too weak to even sit for couple of minutes.. During the visit , she's able to speak and she kissed almost everyone,including my kids and myself. She uttered something good about my hubby and me in Tamil...(translated in English by my niece,Vahesh.)

Hubby and me, plan to visit her this evening. Hope whatever that is gonna happend to her next,will be much excepted by the family..(get what i mean).

2009-12-16T19:50:00.004+08:00

*toot *toot*

Im back...i mean, the pc is back.!!

I missed surfing and bloghopping.

I went for a short break to Kuala Lumpur and then to Malacca.
I really dunno why, this time, im feeling a little home sick,
eventhou i have my family with me..my kids,hubby,my parents & my sis.

I never have this feeling before,not when going on a holiday.
Anyhow...it was really fun and i did enjoy the breakie.

Tommorrow is Muharram, the first month of the Islamic calender.
Ironically,soon, it will be end of Dec and 2010 is approaching, people start making resolutions , celebrate, partying and stuff like that.

So, what's for Muharram...well, i want to loose weight,hahaha

Seriously, i want to strive to certain changes in me...and maybe the family too.
It's not a resolution, just one of my random thots, but im still not so clear how to do it.
Staying motivated is sometimes can be a struggled.
It is so eazy to get distracted and loose focus .
Let me think abt it...cos im such a procrastinator.!

Oh, i also read a short story abt Fatimah az-zahra,daughter of our prophet s.a.w.
It's so sad. Go and read,for those who hasn't.

Lastly,For the record, i didnt enjoy watching 2012 !

2009-12-07T15:42:00.002+08:00

Im still having bad pc weeks.

It's kinda insane going without pc.!!

I got so many things to write and share , but this wont be happening soon, till the
pc doctor returned my pc back to me.

Im writing this frm my brother's lappie.

I'll be going on a short break with my family this Wednesday.
Kids are so excited........ so am I :P

Just hoping my pc would be able to return home, when im back.

Be good , people !

Take care .!

:)

2009-11-24T15:50:00.003+08:00

Im feeling a little handicap.

My computer got crashed and died instantly.
The screen went blank and im feeling the withdrawal.

I just send the kids for their class and headed down to the library
to returned our borrowed books..
While waiting for the kids to end their class , i take the chance to use the computer here..to kill time.

I had some pictures for add here, but i cant do it at the moment.
We had fun bowling last Sunday with FaithHub team... it was really fun.

Our family Quran class was brought forward to Monday,which was y'day at 5pm - 7pm.
Initially , hubby was alright with his recognitions of the arabic letters, then
when all the letters are joined together, he got all confused. I knew he was really trying his best...fortunately, the Ustaz is a really patience teacher. We all keep encouraging hubby,all he needs to do is revise every day or every other day,before the next lesson. Insya allah.

After the lesson, Ustaz did congregation maghrib prayer with us...
it was really surreal.

Im hoping and praying that will all these family thingy that we do together, spiritually or not ... will keep my family bonding stronger. I want my hubby and kids to be my companion for my/our ibadah and stay together thru thick and thin.

Challenges will still arise as long as we live, but how we pull thru , is that , what really matters.

AidilAdha Mubarrak , to everyone.!

2009-11-22T07:38:00.008+08:00

Yesterday, after Asr .. hubby and me went to the airport to send off our dear friends, sis N and her hubby , bro K to perform thier Hajj.

The airport was filled with people sending off thier friends and families.

Few of our good friends were there to send them off too, and so were her families.
Thier two kids,ages 13 and 11 were emotional and had to be consoled by thier aunts and uncles who were present there. This is a very normal sight that we will see ,especially when sending off people who are going on such spiritual journey.

After hugging and seeking forgiveness to everyone present there, both sis N and bro K had to make their leave and entered the transit lounge. Hubby and myself, then made our moved..to our next destination,fetching the kids (who were at home), for dinner.

While waking towards the carpark, we talked abt what we had just witnessed. I was indeed surprised to hear what hubby said , " I wished i am the one going for Hajj now. !"
Subhanallah...

We continued talking in the car , i could see his enthusiasm of doing such journey. I reckon he cant wait to do our mini journey ... kept asking me to plan and check out the dates etc.

I told him to take one step at a time ...... put your intention for the sake of Allah, HE will not dissappoint you...HE is the Most Knowing.

Subhanallah....... it been a long ride, especially so for hubby,who is a convert and has never been excited over stuff like this before.

Allah the Exalted said:

And whoever relies upon Allah - then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent. [at-Talaaq: 3]

2009-11-19T11:05:00.004+08:00

I am having mood swings these past few days..maybe its due to the time of the month.

Yesterday, my sister kinda pissed me off...and then ,the kids pissed me off too, almost at the same time.

As much as i tried to control my anger ...I bursted !

All of them who pissed me off were in my car .... as i came out fm the parking lot, due to my angry self ...... i didnt see a taxi was coming towards me, i almost hit the taxi..just by few inches away . Thank God, the taxi driver managed to stop in time. All those in the car , were in shocked! But they knew, i was really mad at them.

Astargfirullah...i quickly istighfar. Thank you Allah for saving me and the family from getting into an accident, due to my carelessness. I fell into the whisper of syaitan at that time.

Along the journey, everyone in the car, were silent. No one talked.
While driving in silent , i read my zikir in the heart...it did calm me down.

After dropping my sister off , the rain started to pour so heavily , making it difficult to drive due to poor visibility. Maybe the cool n wet weather did take part to cool me down a little bit.

I asked Allah for forgiveness ... after which, things fell back in place, somehow.

Then i remembered in my earlier dhuha class, the ustz did mentioned that if before you leave your house, u recite "Bismillaahi, tawakkaltu `alallaahi, wa laa hawla wa laa quwwata illa billaah", you will be protected.

To break down the doa, in a book that i recently read, it was mentioned that if you recite these before leaving yr house, "Bismillah" , the angel will say "you will be guided " . If you continue with "tawakkaltu 'alallah" , (you leave everthing to Allah)...angel will say " it is enough " , followed by "la haulawala quwwata illah billah" , the angel say, "you are taken care."

wallahualam.

2009-11-16T06:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was "hightlight of the week" ... our family Quran reading class started at 3pm and lasted till 5pm.

We were all prepared by 2.30pm .... hubby was trying to learn the arabic letters with the help of my kids. It was sooo sweet n funny to see both of them, trying to teach daddy..hehe

When the Ustz came, we sat at our dining table and started to "introduced" ourselves , have small talks , after which he read doa,before we begin the class.

Hubby was the first..he started with the Iqra' , recognition of the letters and phonetic. Surprisingly, he did well. My kids who is still on going for thier other quran class, have to just continue reading on the pages that they've stop.

For, myself......since i am already able to read, Ustz wanted me to start afresh with him, from the very beginning of Al-Fatiha, and frm there ,he'll guide to "fine tuning" my reading.

All and all , yesterday was really fun, in a differect aspect of it. Instead of the usual laze around , boring Sundays , our Sundays are now spent with the whole family learning the Quran.

Alhamdulillah.

2009-11-12T06:53:00.002+08:00

Last nite , hubby and me visited a couple friend who is going for the spiritual journey of Hajj.

We were warmly welcomed by sis N and bro K. They are a good friend of ours .Bro K is a Chinese convert. As we sat and chatted,he shared with us his experienced when he went Umrah (together w his wife,sis N and their 2 kids)in 2007.

They showed us slides photos of their Umrah journey and shared some stories behind the places that they went. As a convert himself, bro K, took his Umrah as another formed of ibadah and also as a family holiday. Never in bro K's mind that he would feel what he felt when he was in the Holy Land of Mecca & Madinah. Upon,coming back fm the Umrah, he told his wife,sis N, to save up and do Hajj. Alhamdulillah , Allah has invited both of them for this spiritual journey, this year.

My many attempts to "convinced" my hubby to go Umrah somehow, wasnt convincing enuf. He has the intention, but was afraid that task is gonna be difficult for him...But last nite, after watching their slides and their sharing session, my hubby was convinced and told them that he wanted to do it.......as a family, next year, perhaps. Insya allah.

I was indeed surprised and obviously glad , to hear that fm hubby. Allah has given another light for us to lead the right path. HE opens another door of submission.

Anyhow, first thing first...... this Sunday will be our first family Quran lesson with Ustz H. Its more for hubby (but since, it's good to make it a family bonding thingy, me and kids follow suit.)

I strongly believe, if you have good intentions, in the path of Allah, HE will definitely guide you. Never stop making doa ....... and never give up.

"A journey of a thousand miles, starts with a first step ."

Alhamdulillah.

2009-11-10T07:24:00.014+08:00

Nothing much has been happening lately.

Life is still the norm.

I'm trying to start reading books again...which ive been soo lacking lately.

But, reading the Holy Quran has always bring calmness in me.

**Edited at 1715hrs **
Alhamdulillah,HE has just granted me another time (my personal 2nd time)of qatamul Quran,just after my Asr prayer. May HE grant you the same nikmah.
Insya allah, amiin.

While hubby is still away in Shanghai , with kids and myself on our own, i have the necessary time of being alone and do my own self reflections.

Many things Ive learned and make me grow along the way.

I realised , as long as i allow myself to see beauty things that surrounds me, life is but , full of blessings. :)

Beauty that abounds with my loved ones and my relationship with them.
Each one has its own unique way, that is different fm anyone else.

Beauty in everyday things ......the crystal morning dews on my plants and even the soft comfort of my bed at the end of the day.

Our moment of life is filled with such beauty that we sometimes tend to neglect.

Take time to stop and smell the roses.

Today, I choose to discover and cherish the beauty that comes with each moment of this wonderful day in my life .

2009-11-06T11:51:00.002+08:00

There's a few hiccups...but the pouring rain didnt dampen the spirit.

It went smoothly.

Smiles of relieved appeared on my parent's faces.

Now, at their golden age , all i want , is to give as much as i can , to make my parents happy.

I know, they are looking forward to the short trip , with us .
My sister and her son is tagging along too.

Nothing beats family bonding .

Alhamdulillah.

2009-11-04T13:45:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is The Day .

Hope the agonies and creases that my parents went thru for these past months will be smoothen.

Only YOU can make things happen.

2009-11-02T07:22:00.003+08:00

What !! It's already November ?!

Year end is coming ? Muharram is approaching ?

So, what should i be looking forward to or have in store , besides the norm ........

# Hubby is flying off to China (Shanghai) , this coming Friday.

# starting of our family Quran class (at the comfort of our home), Insya allah .

# FaithHub bowling challenge + dinner .

# school holidays ...................... I need a break too !!

Time flies .............. reminder to myself :

If you havent done anything good ....... do it now, while your heart is still beating .

2009-10-30T07:05:00.010+08:00

I have good news to share on this blessed Friday .

For gazillions times and since donkey years ive been persuading my hubby to learn the Quran.
The same ol' answers he will give me ..... "wait , im not ready" .
(note to some of u : my hubby is a convert)

Coincidentally, a good friend , sis N , whose husband is also a convert , told me that , her Ustz has a slot avlble on Sunday @ 3pm , checking if im interested to take in. I spoke to hubby briefly over the phone and before i did my Asr, i texted him..... asking him to consider taking this opportunity and offer , as the Ustz is experience , patience and judging fm feedbacks frm my two good friends who has been learning with him for years...the Ustz is the "one" . However , i wont force the hubby .

I texted my two good friends , sis S and sis N to make doa for me/us . They have always been very encouraging and partly my source of motivatiors . While doing my Asr, i prayed hard that Allah will open up my hubby's heart this time round. Minutes later, i r'cd a reply fm hubby ........ "Go ahead ! "

For that very moment, i just couldnt Thanks Allah enuf. Allhamdulillah 3x
I really didnt expect HE answered my doa almost immediately :)

I was full of emotions , even when i was talking to sis N , to tell her the good news . I got the Ustz mobile no. frm her and called him to make arrangments . This is really so surreal . !

Alhamdulillah.

The second good news .........

Sis N and her hubby's plan to go Hajj this year was rejected due to the quota issues. Even after the extended quota of extra 1500 slots were announced, their names are not in the lists. Obviously , dissappoinment surrounded them.

Then, their agent mentioned that abt 350 + jemaahs backed off, due to the lack of annual leaves, lack of preparations etc... so possibility their names can be on the top list. Sis N said, she leave it everything to HIM. Last nite, i received a text fm sis N , saying her husband and herself are being invited by Allah for this year's spiritual journey.

Alhamdulillah .

Give your full Trust in Allah ........ HE 'll be there for you.

2009-10-29T07:08:00.003+08:00

Im in the mooood of baking ......

Yesterday afnn , after sending my daughter for her class , i whipped up butter , sugar and other ingredients , to make this ...........

Marble cake .

It's soft , moist and yummy !

Hubby tasted it and voila ! I cut half of the portion and he send to his mum .

2009-10-27T12:14:00.007+08:00

I am seriously craving for ....................

TONY ROMA ' S ribs !!!

But, we have to drive alllllll the way to Kuala Lumpur to get that .
Ohhhh i luv KL when it comes to foodies and shopping .

Sadly , here, in Singapore , Tony's not halal .

I cant wait for my daughter's exam to be over and done ....... might just persuade hubby to drive up to chill , unwind and be greedy ! :P